I have a hard time understanding when people are emotional. Everyone is entitled to have emotions as well, but because of my autism, I get confused and scared. All those emotions come into my body at once.
When others are having an emotion I feel it deeply but don't understand, I automatically think I'm in trouble and I don't like when I see people having emotions with me... especially seeing the reactions because that will make me scared because I have a hard time understanding it.
And I don't like it when people have strong emotions because I feel them too. I like it when people are chill with me instead of full reactions... but that's hard because everyone is entitled to have emotions.
When I feel others' emotions it actually hurts my body. I feel jumpy all over the inside and like sharp tasers in my stomach. It starts in my neck, then shoulders then down my arms and stomach. If i'm really stressed my body wants to crash and bash down. If I am doing that, it is very hard to make me stop and can be dangerous.
Down the road in my head I'm afraid that autism may limit me and I will always be confused. I am working very hard at understanding everyone and the world around me. When I'm overwhelmed and people are pissed off with me, I don't like it because my autism super powers allows me to feel all those emotions.
Mom says we do not punish autism.